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Poetry Sunday-How It Feels

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How It Feels

 

 

I know how it feels to have lost,

As if the life I know has ended.

Moving through a vortex,

Not really living, just existing.

 

 

I know how it feels to hurt deep inside,

that intense pain in your heart.

As if a vital piece is missing,

and it feels impossible to move; to go on.

 

 

And yet I know it is from this pain,

 That the stronger me will emerge.

And the truer meaning of my life will be known.

 

© Donna Donabella 2015

 

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I have these inner dialogues with myself sometimes when I am hurting, depressed or going through some unpleasant strong emotions.  Recently with my mom’s illness and weakening, some of these darker moods have shown up again to be heard.  And so the inner dialogue continues as I move through them.  For me, I know I must lean into these times of shadow, in order to move back out into the light.

 

 

 

I am joining in with Poets United for their weekly poetry link up for poets who blog.  Visit them to read some more wonderful verse.

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I am also linking in with the I Heart Macro meme hosted by Laura@Shine The Divine that happens every Saturday, and with Judith@Lavender Cottage who is hosting Mosaic Monday.  

 

 

If you enjoy reading this blog, I welcome you to share it with others. I enjoy spreading the blog love, and I appreciate all who come and read my blogs. 

 

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Special Note:  The thyme plant and flowers pictured here represent courage and strength.

 

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I leave you with a few additional words about strength, courage and  finding the better path.  I welcome you to download the photo and share it.

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All other photos and original content is copyrighted and the sole property of Donna Donabella @ Living From Happiness, 2014-2015.  Any reprints or use of other photos or content is by permission only.

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91 Comments

  1. April 12, 2015    

    Ann Lamott says it better than I can.
    ‘Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn wil come. You wait and watch and work: You don’t give up.’
    Though sometimes the dawn seems a very, very long way away.
    Hugs.

  2. April 12, 2015    

    There are such intense emotions portrayed this your poem… like a heart filled with forlorn.. longing to be rescued… the vivid language makes the pain fresh and alive.. a very powerful poem!!
    May you always be acres away from any sort of pain and hardship in life… 🙂
    Love,
    Sanaa

    • April 15, 2015    

      You are very perceptive Sanaa…and thank you for your kind wishes!

  3. April 12, 2015    

    So it is from pain that we become stronger and brave to start again ~ Thanks for the lovely lesson ~

  4. April 12, 2015    

    Inner dialogues are an essential means of working things out…the emptiness of that void..of just existing really resonates..and yet with words and our soul perhaps it is not permanent…it may appear again…but hopefully we move slowly forward with each minute..

  5. April 12, 2015    

    Yes, sometimes even as we are going through a difficult time we do realize that we will come out of the pain on the other side. We know that eventually we will probably have learned something…but, at the time, it doesn’t make it any easier. I always say…one step at a time.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Yes being in the pain is the hardest part Mary….and it is essential to keep taking one step at a time.

  6. April 12, 2015    

    In the depths of darkness it is sometimes virtually impossible to imagine we can emerge, and yet most of the time we have that capacity.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Yes that strength to move through the darkness is essential Gabriella….

  7. April 12, 2015    

    I so agree with Mary’s comments…one step at a time. I tell myself this all the time…dealing with my father’s Alzheimer’s for five years and then his passing…he was my best friend and I miss him every day. I can relate with your comment about your darker moods with your mom’s illness…thinking of you…

  8. April 12, 2015    

    Your poem is beautiful, thank you 🙂

  9. April 12, 2015    

    such a courageous way to face this life; you are already a winner

    have a nice Sunday

    much love…

  10. Tatius Tatius
    April 12, 2015    

    Touching poem, a walk in the shadows brings more understanding and comfort when moving back into the light.

  11. April 12, 2015    

    Dona, I love how the first and second stanzas recognize the difficulties brought by overwhelming emotions, by those times when life gets so full that we think we won’t be able to contain it… Then the last stanza takes the chaos/energy of those emotions and turn them into something positive. Yes, things have been tough, but look at me–I’ve survived and lived. Wonderful!

    • April 12, 2015    

      P.S. This poem would fit well with the day’s prompt, over at my blog: “Estranged and Cut Off”. I think that it would work as a mantra many people living (and sometimes just existing) in the fringes, could benefit from. Do feel free to link it, if you like. ♥

      • April 15, 2015    

        Thanks for the invite to link in Magaly….I always do try to keep the hope alive even in the darkness…

  12. April 12, 2015    

    that realization helps to stand up and to live life once again…

  13. April 12, 2015    

    I love your heart full of flowers image – so beautiful. The closing lines of your poem are deeply wise………I am sorry your mother is in poor health. These are difficult passages. My cousin is going through that right now with her father, and is feeling terribly stretched. I told her “just take one day at a time, it is too overwhelming otherwise.” Take good care.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks so much Sherry….I will take your wise words to heart!

  14. April 12, 2015    

    the ending is beautiful.. these all are lessons, some really hard, but what we take from them..

    • April 15, 2015    

      Oh thank you Nataša…yes the lessons we take from these trying times.

  15. April 12, 2015    

    Yes, we learn while in pain, but still its hurt…My thoughts with you, Donna…So glad, you keep writing, dialoging and talking with us, readers/poets…Take care …hugs

    • April 15, 2015    

      The writing is so important for me to process my feelings…thank you for your lovely words.

  16. April 12, 2015    

    I liked the thoughts of moving from the shadows to the light… that’s life… beautiful photo

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thank you…yes we are always moving from light to dark and back as life moves on.

  17. April 12, 2015    

    Sometimes facing the darkness is the only way to spot the light that can grow into something new… Love your lines here.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks so much Bjorn…it means a lot to know you enjoyed the poem.

  18. April 12, 2015    

    Hi Donna
    Again a post to linger with you… words that make us reflect, just quietly alongside you about our own lives about the words living v’s existing… I just love what you bring to my world Donna. I love that you always end with hope, and that you always give a photo with words to share…
    “Moi” of course is at the other end of the blogosphere with just plain flippant and silly… well they say opposites attract! Oh gosh, please don’t hurry my way until I’ve had a chance to move on from broken legs and toilet rolls…
    Love your work!
    Wren x

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks so much Wren for such a wonderful comment…I love flippant and silly so that is perfect!

  19. April 12, 2015    

    Empathy can be a blessing or a curse, but mostly it lets us know that we are not alone. Lovely blog post!

  20. CC CC
    April 12, 2015    

    I just retweeted something today on Twitter that comes to mind again after reading your poem: “Difficult roads often lead to beautiful destinations.” I think that’s similar to what you are saying to yourself in your inner dialogue….that even in the midst of the pain, the stronger you will emerge…something good will come out of this. Yes! Here’s the the beautiful outcome 🙂

    • April 15, 2015    

      Perfection CC….I love this little saying. Thank you.

  21. April 12, 2015    

    I have felt that pain and even though you will emerge stronger it still hurts in the now.

  22. Reba Reba
    April 12, 2015    

    Pain is one of our teachers in life; it makes us stronger… although it hurts like hell going through it.
    Wonderful job, Donna!

  23. April 12, 2015    

    The pain in this is palpable. Hugs to you

  24. April 12, 2015    

    I can feel the weariness in this, as well as the glimmer of determination.

    • April 15, 2015    

      You read it well Rommy…and determination is what helps me get through.

  25. April 12, 2015    

    We all need that moment to reflect, have a conversation with ourselves. Cheer up, Donna. Everything will be fine.

    • April 15, 2015    

      I love using my writing for reflection…thanks totomai.

  26. April 12, 2015    

    Sorry you’re going through this pain. It is very difficult, I know. But, you are right. You will emerge not only stronger but wiser. Hugs and best wishes to you.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks Myrna….You are right I will be stronger for this.

  27. April 12, 2015    

    Each life experience is a lesson for us. It allows us to appreciate what we have and how cope in the future. The pain we feel is just telling us how much we have loved and been loved…and importantly what we can still achieve.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Robin that is a wonderful way to look at this….’the pain is telling us how much we are loved’….thank you for this.

  28. April 12, 2015    

    Your words speak of hope, of moving towards something better even as they acknowledge the pain. It can’t be easy, but I hope it gets better.

    Jen

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks Jen…right now it is a roller coaster with good and bad days….always getting better.

  29. April 13, 2015    

    I love your heart mosaic full of flowers.. Sending prayers for you Mom, I hope she feels better soon. I do love the end of your poem, be strong.. HUGS, Eileen

    • April 15, 2015    

      I so appreciate it Eileen….I get my strength from my mom…she is amazing!

  30. April 13, 2015    

    Lovely heart shape collage of the flowers. So appealing.

  31. April 13, 2015    

    Powerful poetry, Donna. Sorry for the hard times you are having right now 🙁

  32. April 13, 2015    

    there will always be light after the darkness.
    lovely poem, and i like the positive notes of the last stanza.

    • April 15, 2015    

      Thanks….I can’t make it through the dark times without knowing there is light…

  33. April 13, 2015    

    Amazing how strong we really are.
    Beautiful succulents and the thyme.

  34. April 13, 2015    

    It’s such a brave thing, to “move back out into the light”.
    Stirs my courage and I thank you for the shares
    that send that sweet energy out into the universe
    for the rest of us. Brave to come unhidden. Brave to share.
    Thanks for all the ways you’re brave (it makes a difference,
    you know. It matters. You do:))
    glad thanks,
    Jennifer

    • April 15, 2015    

      Oh my dear friend Jennifer…my heart is singing as I read your words…courage was not something I thought myself to be…but you have given it voice….thank you!

  35. April 13, 2015    

    I can relate to your words so well. I know what it is like to be at the bedside of a sick parent. I wish you strength and calmness of spirit through these days. I love your heart mosaic. I hope you find peace this week. I am joining you today over at Mosaic Monday.

  36. April 13, 2015    

    Wonderful words, such a hard thing is knowing.

  37. April 13, 2015    

    You have a wonderful way of sharing your inner dialogs with those of us who don’t have that talent, who still have the dialogs). Your mosaic sharing strength and courage symbols is lovely…

    • April 15, 2015    

      You are too kind Sallie…I thank you for such incredible words.

  38. April 13, 2015    

    Donna,

    Poetry and writing, are wonderful ways to unburden yourself, during times of stress and worry. It allows an escape from the tensions and the pressures, which need to be freed, but controlled…Putting your emotions into words, is very helpful and also, shares your situation too..

    Eileen

    • April 15, 2015    

      I agree Eileen…writing is my Superpower….it helps me.

  39. Kerry O'Connor Kerry O'Connor
    April 13, 2015    

    I do not think one can fail to learn from suffering, to grow in strength and experience.

  40. April 13, 2015    

    Oh man, Donna!! I know how it feels too. Your words could be my words. Great writing!!

    • April 15, 2015    

      Appreciate the kind thoughts…thanks for stopping by Torie!

  41. Judith @ Lavender Cottage Judith @ Lavender Cottage
    April 13, 2015    

    A heartfelt poem along with your heart filled with flowers.
    Thanks for linking to Mosaic Monday.

  42. April 13, 2015    

    Oh, Donna, your post of today is so sensitive, the lyrics are amazing, touching the soul, the impressions that you’ve shared with us!!! “I know how it feels to have lost,
    As if the life I know has ended.
    Moving through a vortex,
    Not really living, just existing… And the true meaning of my life will be known.” So thankful!! Warm greetings and wishes of good health for you and mom!

  43. KL KL
    April 13, 2015    

    Beautiful poem. I love the first para best as it has been happening with me since my mom passed away. I heard recently on NPR that we do not grow up until our parents pass away. That has happened to me since 2012. Lovely poem. I wish your mother all the health and you all the strength.

    • April 15, 2015    

      That is an interesting thought…I do think it is true….when my dad passed so did my childhood….I thank you my friend for your sweet thoughts.

  44. April 13, 2015    

    It’s good to have a way to express your feelings when you are going through hard times…the valleys of life. Take care my friend. Hugs, Diane

    • April 15, 2015    

      I appreciate your kind thoughts Diane…hugs to you too!

  45. April 21, 2015    

    sad beginning, but glimmer of hope at the end. I wish the truer meaning of life could be found.

    • April 21, 2015    

      I agree Donna, my husband frequently asks what that truer meaning might be.

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