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Poetry Sunday: And So I Wait

And So I Wait

 

 

The waves crash in on me

and swallow me up.

Grief washing over my heart

and pulling me deeper into

the abyss of my profound sorrow.

 

 

And as I drown in this place

of never ending tears,

there is a void where I feel nothing….

Nothing but a stabbing pain where my heart used to beat.

 

 

The sun shines, but I only feel the cold shadow.

I wander aimlessly.

And I stand still not sure what I seek,

but maybe a way out of this dark hole.

 

 

But there is no escape,

only sad eyes cried dry.

And when the next wave hits

with a ferocious slam,

I am once again knocked to the ground

to start the drowning all over again.

 

 

And so I wait for the waves of tears to subside,

for the cries of anguish to lessen,

for the lump in my throat to release

allowing me to breathe precious air.

 

 

And so I wait for a break,

a peace, some solace~

          and so I wait

and so I wait….

 

For there is nothing else

              I can do as I try to go on

                with the loss of you.

 

 

©Donna Donabella 2017

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This is the third poem I wrote when my Aunt Mary died recently (July 3rd).  She was laid to rest this past week, and the grief was back.  Loss is so difficult to deal with, but I have learned that I just need to allow the emotions to flow.  And grief always seems to come at me in waves.  I am doing better these days so perhaps some peace is coming.  You can read my tribute post to my aunt on my other blog.

 

I am joining  Poets United for their Poetry Pantry linkup.

 

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I leave you with a another image about loss.  I welcome you to download the photo and share it.

All other photos and original content is copyrighted and the sole property of Donna Donabella @ Living From Happiness, 2014-2017.  Any reprints or use of other photos or content is by permission only.

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48 Comments

  1. Mary Mary
    July 23, 2017    

    Indeed you do need to let your emotions flow. It feels sometime as if those tears will never subside. Your grief is strongly felt as I read your words.

    • July 23, 2017    

      For now they subside but I know they will ebb and flow and need to…thanks Mary for your support!

  2. July 23, 2017    

    I’m sorry for your loss – your emotions really resonate in this poem

    • July 23, 2017    

      Thanks Jae Rose…..as I heard the news of her death, I was compelled to pull out my pen and let the emotions flow through the words emerging.

  3. July 23, 2017    

    Grief is such a brave thing, Donna; love to you in the waves.
    Grieve well and know that you’re not alone. Never.
    With you,
    Jennifer

    • July 23, 2017    

      I never thought of grieving as brave but it is isn’t it….to let those feelings wash over you is incredibly brave…thank you dear Jennifer!

  4. July 23, 2017    

    Wishing you a turn of the tides to happiness soon

    have a good Sunday Donna

    much love…

    • July 23, 2017    

      Thanks gillena…the tide is turning more now.

  5. Debbie Debbie
    July 23, 2017    

    My heart aches for you. May you receive sweet peace very soon.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Bless you Debbie….peace comes more now.

  6. July 23, 2017    

    It’s true, grief comes in waves. We wait for it to ebb, as it does over time to something more bearable. Your art card with the quotation is very beautiful. Look at it often, read the words……….your aunt sounds like such a wonderful woman.

    • July 23, 2017    

      I will do that Sherry…these words have been very healing for me…..and yes my Aunt was an incredible woman!

  7. July 23, 2017    

    I think the “waves” are the perfect metaphor for grief. It does come in waves. And it is part of it all, the loss, the pain. It is a journey and one you must walk alone. Feel all that you feel, and cry every tear. There is a book, I think it is A Grief Revealed, by C.S. Lewis, that was a good book for me. He tells about his own grief. I am so sorry for your loss of your Aunt Mary. My Mother told me, “in time it will be better.” But I thought, “what about right now”…there is no answer.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Indeed Annell it is a lone journey….I plan to cry every tear. With other losses I have pushed the grief aside but that is not healthy….I will check out the book you mention and I agree, “what about right now”…the time for better is not at hand right now.

  8. July 23, 2017    

    I can certainly feel your loss through your words. I’m sure writing will really help deal with this emotion. I do hope you will be able to accept the grief in a different kind of way very soon. Peace and most of all light to you.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Yes Julian writing has helped process the grief as I let it flow….Peace will come more and more and I appreciate your words.

  9. Bev Bev
    July 23, 2017    

    Surely your eloquent expression of remembrance and grief has been cathartic. Powerful words here!

    • July 23, 2017    

      Thanks so much Bev….it has been cathartic.

  10. July 23, 2017    

    Very sad. You have to ride grief like waves. I so sorry you have to through this. It is never easy. Lovely tribute to your Aunt.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Yes it is never easy, and I am sure there will be other times of grief in this lifetime….so I ride the waves when I must.

  11. July 23, 2017    

    My heart goes out to you.. sending love and healing prayers.. *hugs*

  12. July 23, 2017    

    This is so much a mirror of my poem today … tears, icebergs, impact the deep end … and there does seem to be a thread of grief in so many of the poems today. Mine came from world events, aging, the giant iceberg leaving the Arctic and watching kids diving off the diving board at the pool! Grief at losing loved ones is almost always in my poems. Peace to you.

    • July 23, 2017    

      I was amazed as well at the similarity of our poems….grief and loss are felt in both events and when we lose someone we love….and the feelings are much the same….it seems it is a time of grieving in the world.

  13. July 23, 2017    

    This squeezed my heart until it hurt. It makes me want to reach for the speaker, in order to hug each other, until the soothing takes.

    • July 23, 2017    

      I was amazed by your words as these words and emotions squeezed my heart as I wrote them to the point I almost couldn’t breath. Your hug was felt.

  14. July 23, 2017    

    Yes. The maelstrom of grief is perfectly expressed in your words.
    It does ease I have found, but also comes back. Sometimes unexpectedly.
    Acknowledging and feeling that pain is all I have found I can do.
    Heartfelt hugs, oceans of caring are flowing your way.

    • July 23, 2017    

      You always seem to have the most soothing words for me Soosie. Thanks for the hugs.

  15. Magical Mystical Teacher Magical Mystical Teacher
    July 23, 2017    

    I have a friend who lost her son in a car crash several years ago. This poem would resonate with her.

  16. susan susan
    July 23, 2017    

    “And when the next wave hits
    with a ferocious slam,
    I am once again knocked to the ground
    to start the drowning all over again.”

    Powerful images. You speak true poetry.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Thank you Susan. It came straight from my heart.

  17. July 23, 2017    

    So sorry for your loss. The sadness is palpable.

  18. July 23, 2017    

    A poignant, beautifully rendered piece. I think that being perceptive to the stages of grief as we go through it – what triggers overwhelming feelings of loss and what soothes our soul – helps us … with time … to find our way to the other side. And you have done that, here.

    • July 23, 2017    

      It has taken me a long time to get to just that place Wendy. Thank you for your support.

  19. July 23, 2017    

    I think we writers are fortunate, because our craft allows us to pour out those feelings, back into that sea of grief. And each time, we do so, it becomes more manageable. Never easy, but we have a place to go with it, that others do not.

    Elizabeth

    • July 23, 2017    

      I had never thought of it like that before Elizabeth. We are indeed fortunate.

  20. July 23, 2017    

    Grief is such a hard rock to be dashed upon, only who’s been through it knows. Even in this difficult journey, Tears & Words are with us, the healing companions. May you have peace Donna. Hugs.

    • July 23, 2017    

      Thank you Sumana. I love the idea of tears and words as healing companions.

  21. July 23, 2017    

    I hope writing and sharing has been cathartic for you….

  22. Kerry Kerry
    July 24, 2017    

    Loss is one of the hardest things to come to terms with, the tears are just the tip of the iceberg.

    • July 24, 2017    

      They are Kerry. This time I intend to let the emotions and all the other hard stuff flow.

  23. July 24, 2017    

    Yes, we just have to experience the many phases of grief. Eventually, with time, it becomes easier to bear.

    • July 24, 2017    

      Thanks Rosemary. Grief is ever ongoing.

  24. Rommy Rommy
    July 24, 2017    

    So well described, and so very poignant too. I think anyone who has been through such deep grief can easily relate.

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