“Nothing can dim the light which shines from within.” ~Maya Angelou
One of the people I was introduced to in the April Love course, I wrote about last week, was Andrea Schroeder. She has a wonderful website called, Creative Dream Incubator. And it is here where I was reconnected with my creative dream, and began drawing again.
Andrea has a great free 10-day course called, Give Your Dream Wings, and I loved this easy 10-minute a day class. It finally gave me the push to connect again with that wonderful artsy side of me that has been hidden and tucked away to languish for almost 50 years.
That side that colored in coloring books for hours….who made her own paper dolls, clothes and all, and loved every one of them…..who adored the messy paints in art class, was never really nurtured or encouraged. In fact quite the opposite. I was told in veiled comments that I had no real artistic talent. Art classes became drudgery and painful in middle school. And I was politely asked to leave the chorus in 8th grade…..I was enthusiastic, but tone deaf so it was best for me to leave so there weren’t any awkward moments during concerts.
I was asthmatic and uncoordinated too so no sports for Donna. Actually my Physical Education teachers never marked me absent, so I never had to make up classes as it was best for me not to be there since there were less accidents in PE class when I wasn’t there. So I knew I had to take to my books, and my studies, and excel there as all other outlets were closed off.
“I’ve been absolutely terrified every moment of my life and I’ve never let it keep me from doing a single thing that I wanted to do.”
~ Georgia O’Keefe, artist
Maybe had I been introduced to artists like O’Keefe, and given encouragement, I could have stopped the constant messages of not being good enough, not being creative, not having any talent except for being book smart.
But no matter, that is all old, old water under a bridge I care not to cross anymore, as I have found my inner creative again. And I am once again connected to that dream of exploring this once closed off area…..no fears, no judgments….just creating, trying and moving on with exploring more and more ways to create.
So where did I start? Well I got a little boost from my dear, very talented friend Mary…she is a wonderful artist (although she will not say she is….but she is). And 5 years ago, we started a little weekly ritual called, Art on the Patio. She was working part-time and so was I, and she offered to teach me to draw and use watercolors. At that time, I was not in a good place with self-confidence….actually I was at a very low spot, but wanting to stretch myself a bit and try things I had long put off.
We met almost weekly for 2 months, and here in this post you can see my first attempts. The first drawing at the top of the post is my first drawing of a seed head in my garden. Our art studio was my garden where we would sit at my patio table, under the umbrella, surrounded by a garden with healthy goodies to munch on.
And if it weren’t for Mary, I would not have had the courage to begin this creative endeavor again….we are thinking of getting our Patio Art time started again as we are both retired. In the meantime, I watched a video of Andrea’s on her website about drawing Mandalas. And you can see the start of one below. I draw them daily in my journal after meditating.
So where is all this heading? I don’t know, and frankly I don’t care….I am just so excited as the creative spirit is with me again, and my child-like anticipation and wonder has taken control. I plan to take a free art journaling class next that is offered on Andrea’s site. It is wonderful to find so many things offered for free especially when finances are a bit restricted with retirement.
I have my new journal waiting to be filled with even bigger mandalas and other creative works. And those blank pages, are not scary to look at any more. I believe wholeheartedly that we can live an inspired, creative and thrilling life by doing what excites us. And exploring things we want to know more about or see and do. Each little step we take in this direction opens up new paths, new doorways into new aspects of our lives we never thought would come about.
Who knows what the next big thing will be….and I am so OK with that. I want to open that new box of crayons again, and smell that new smell….see the new perfect tips ready for me to wear them down to a nub. This has been a long time coming getting back to my artsy side….and even acknowledging that I have an artsy side is a big first step. Because we all do….we just forgot it, or never had the chance to explore it.
And I promise, Mary, if we do some more art on the patio, I won’t get all judgy and try to compare myself to you or anyone. I will just be me, and let the experience wash over me like a gentle wave of water bringing me new life and exhilarating every cell of my being.
Special Note: All the drawings here were done in my first attempt at drawing, under the tutelage of my friend Mary 5 years ago on my patio in the summer. I am sharing these drawings for the first time, and that is a huge step for me. These are a great start, and I hope to continue to draw often as I meditate with my creative side.
I leave you with more thoughts about creativity. Feel free to download this photo and share.
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