Message from the Council of 13 Indigenous Grandmothers:
“As you move through these changing times… be easy on yourself and be easy on one another. You are at the beginning of something new. You are learning a new way of being. You will find that you are working less in the yang modes that you are used to.
You will stop working so hard at getting from point A to point B the way you have in the past, but instead, will spend more time experiencing yourself in the whole, and your place in it.
Instead of traveling to a goal out there, you will voyage deeper into yourself. Your mother’s grandmother knew how to do this. Your ancestors from long ago knew how to do this. They knew the power of the feminine principle… and because you carry their DNA in your body, this wisdom and this way of being is within you.
Call on it. Call it up. Invite your ancestors in. As the yang based habits and the decaying institutions on our planet begin to crumble, look up. A breeze is stirring. Feel the sun on your wings.”
With spring rapidly approaching, I feel the pull of my garden. It sings sweet, soft songs to me. A welcome back to the land. To the rebirth, and growing of all things green. It is a cherished time….a reunion of the soul with the soil. A time to plant seeds and watch them come to life.
And it is a time when I feel I have recouped my power. I am stronger, clear-headed and more balanced once spring comes. I have been working on this balance for a long time. Ever since I entered the world of administration, from teaching, I found myself in an unfamiliar world. A place foreign where I just did not feel at home.
I was always in battle…..feeling like I had to have my guard up. Thrust into a more outgoing, aggressive atmosphere. A place that was most uncomfortable, especially for this sensitive introvert. But I felt I was learning, and I could be me once I learned to navigate in this new place.
Fifteen years later, I retired from this battle-weary life. This world of tension, and constant action. I had become ill from the unyielding stress. And I knew I had to leave, or I would literally die. I thought of my exit as retreating, giving up, and that I was just not strong enough to make it in this world of work I had chosen.
And this defeat has preyed on my mind for 2 years, until recently I was given a life line in a letter I received from a most generous and precious soul, Sandra Pawula. I have talked about Sandra’s wonderful Joyful Wisdom Guide’s before. They are thoughtful, poignant and so very helpful. Although I had no idea how life changing they would be, until she sent me the one on balancing the masculine and feminine.
Once I read more, and understood this balance between the Yin and Yang, it was clear I had made the right choice in my exit. The battle had been fought in my old life, and I had given myself over to a life of continual action….more, more, more….running from pillar to post….the masculine side in which my career was steeped. I had given up fighting for my feminine side….where I had been relying more on my intuition, receptivity…..which had served me well when I allowed this side to flourish.
Now instead, for these past 2 years, I have yielded to this inner struggle of the Yin and Yang; the masculine and feminine. Now instead, I have given myself over to this introverted woman. Cocooned her, nourished her and allowed her to live….to speak to me. I let my fears come alive, and faced them learning the messages they held. The lessons I was destined to learn. To embrace the less perfect me. The softer side where things are messy. Where I have faced my vulnerabilities and give them voice.
I have rested much in this time of refueling. Living in my garden. Watching, complacent in the knowledge that I must let it all be for now. Let nature take hold and give it what it needs….what I need to rekindle. Healthy food, water, rest, simple exercise. And now I know the winds are changing for me. As I learn to use the Yin of me.
And as the Indigenous Grandmothers pointed out, this new journey is not toward a goal, but a journey within. I feel their words deeply knowing ‘in my gut’ that this is how it MUST be for me, and for humanity now. To embrace my feminine side, as she softly calls to me, when the moon rises and I lay awake hearing the inner voices of wisdom speak. Feeling what it means to be in the flow.
Where is this all going? What lies in store? I do not know. I just know I will follow the voice of this woman; her wisdom water.…a slow meandering creek where she makes her way, and carves her path. I will follow-up here, as lessons unfold, and issues crop up. As life takes hold, and I finally soar in the sun with my own strong wings supporting me.
Have you felt this pull to embrace your feminine side….to connect with your intuition? What new lessons are you learning?
Special Note: The pictures here are of pink flowers from my indoor garden (Amaryllis or Hippeastrum throughout the body of the post), and outdoor garden (Lily-of-the-Valley at the top of the post, and Hellebores at the bottom). Pink represents the feminine side, friendship, affection, harmony, inner peace and tenderness. It is the color of love of oneself and of others. A perfect color for this post.
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